Before my husband and I were married, we discussed when
would be the best time to start our family.
Of course we were open to any children God may provide us as a loving
married couple, but we were not going to actively try for a baby for a couple
of years. That would give us a few years
to adjust to the new roles of husband and wife and to be better prepared to
take on the responsibility of being a parent.
Well last summer we celebrated our second wedding
anniversary and took an exciting trip around the world! When we returned from
the trip, we were ready to settle down and start our family. Sadly, it has been about eighth months since
then and we still are not pregnant.
We bought a monthly ovulation kit, after hearing positive
results that one of my cousins had from using a kit. But the couple of months that
I used it were discouraging as the strip never darkened enough to show that I
am ovulating. I felt stressed out and
worried that something could be wrong with me, so I stopped using the kit and
went back to trying to relax more about making a baby.
One of my friends is also struggling to get pregnant. She has seen a doctor and now takes hormones
to try to help her conceive. The books
that I have read said to see a doctor after a year of trying, so I guess I have
a few more months before I should make an appointment.
One of my friends sent a prayer card of St. Gerard since he
is the patron saint of childbirth and conception. We are Catholic, so we
appreciated the gesture. She said it
took her parents five years to conceive and then they were able to have six
children. Now we pray to St. Gerard to
help intercede to God to ask for a baby on our behalf.
Another person told me it took her and her husband seven
years before they were able to conceive. It gave me both hope and despair, hope
that it would happen for us one day and despair that I may have to wait so many
more years before I am able to hold a little baby of my own.
Then before Christmas, my mom informed me that my sister is
pregnant. My sister is two years younger
than me and has been married for a year and a half, so I was happy for
her. My mom used a tone when she said
that she “finally gets to be a grandma” which really hurt my feelings. It isn't that I am trying to not give her any
grandchildren. I am just struggling to
conceive.
Please pray for us and send us warm thoughts!
